as an addict, and a moron, any pleasant experience i have i try like hell to replicate. this isn’t just addict behavior, of course, but human nature. the thing the addict brings to the table is that he will try and replicate a good day he had, and in the process entirely fuck up the day at hand.
my son is an addict. he has a problem with lollipops. if he gets a good lollipop, and has a pleasant lolly-sucking experience, he soon wants and needs to repeat it. those billions of cells want to gobble those lolly-juice peptides right up. likewise, if he has an UNpleasant lolly experience – say, a brown lolly when the wrapper portended orange, or, getting to the center and chewing too soon or too fast — crack, crunch crunch, oh goddammit, no more lolly – then he wants to go back to the lollipop man and get another so he can soothe the unsatisfied, jonesing, kill-ready lust within him.